Thankful List

Throughout November I've been working on mindfulness and gratitude.  I recall recent research that suggests the most happy people are also the most thankful.  In no particular order of importance, here is a list of some of the things for which I am thankful.

November Thankful List

1. Sunny days for walking to get Milo from preschool
2. Cuddle time in bed with a baby
3. Family Saturday mornings with pumpkin pancakes
4. Walks in the woods and throwing rocks into a river
5. Baby giggles and little boy kisses
6. Voting for the best ideas to lead our country forward
7. Running under a pink sky
8. My loving husband
9. My parents
10. The smell of coffee
11. Sunday night dinners
12. The imagination and innocence of a three-year-old
13. My good health along with that of my husband and kiddos
14. My brothers who love my kids
15. The nice parks in our neighborhood
16. The sleepy sounds of snoozing boys
17. Alone time
18. The relationship developing between Milo and Leo which I hope lasts a lifetime
19. Friends who keep me sane
20. Chris’ job which allows me to stay home and be a full time mom
21. Dessert
22. A wide abundance of healthy food to nurture the bodies of those I love
23. Good books to transport me to other places and introduce new ideas
24. A strong marriage
25. The twinkle and shine of Christmas lights
26. Flannel sheets and soft blankies
27. Muffins
28. The Internet for its ability to connect
29. Flexibility in body and mind - the ability to change course when needed
30. All of it - the good, even some of the bad, the mundane and spectacular

Keep Moving

Goals are meant to be met and fears tackled - whether they be frog or blog related.

At the beginning of the month when I said I would post each day, I wasn't sure how it would go.  I undertook this task as a way to breathe life back into this blog, to recommit myself to it and to improve my writing skills.  I am proud to say that I did post each day - even if there were several days where I changed the dates of posts to make this possible.  I am not proud to say I don't think I much improved my writing skills.  Many of the posts were rushed.  Several of the posts were phoned in.  A few of the posts were even somewhat incoherent.

So, yes, I completed my goal of posting each day for a month and that's great, but I also am feeling I didn't meet the spirit of the goal.  I do find I like writing here (although I think my Mom and brother - hi guys! - are the main audience) and will continue to use this space to update on the boys, work out my thoughts and possibly tackle some writing type prompts.

Also?  I'm rather glad November is over.  I'll commit to weekly posts from here on out, but daily is just too much for me right now.

People

As rewarding as it is to stay home with kiddos, there is also a truth that it can be isolating.  After so many hours of only talking to children, I can sometimes feel myself going a bit batty.  It's as though one more whiny request will totally send me over the edge.  When this happens I find the best thing to do is get out and see other people.

I have my treasured group of Mama friends.  We've been together since Milo was just a wee one and it's been so wonderful to see the kids grow as friends.   The Mamas, too, have grown in friendships and it's these women I depend on to keep me going at times.  We chat online, we meet at parks, we invite one another into our homes for play dates and once a month or so we meet for drinks sans children.  Milo and I both count this group as some of our favorite people.

Today, in a bit of a departure from our usual routine, we went to local coffee shop and saw some of my former co-workers.  I had almost forgotten about the part of employment where you see the same people everyday, work in close quarters and get to know their good and bad sides.  It was such a treat to see a couple of these folks, catch up and remember this.

People need people, after all.

More Money

Milo:  I want to take pictures and make money
Me:  So you want to be a professional photographer
Milo (exasperated):  No I just want to take good pictures...and make money to give to Daddy to take to work and he can buy more money


The life of a budding artist is tricky.

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3/4 of our house is sick with a nasty virus.  We are hoping the remaining and youngest family member doesn't get it.  Mommy milk protective enzymes do your work!

Leftovers

In trying to reclaim the space in my fridge all the leftovers from Thanksgiving were taking up, I made a concerted effort to use everything today.  It wasn't getting any fresher after all.  Plus we are planning another large meal this weekend when we celebrate an early Christmas with Chris' parents.

So mission leftover:  I made these delicious muffins this afternoon.  And then I promptly ate at least two of them.  The filling of the muffins is leftover cranberry sauce and it is super yummy wrapped up in cake.  If you make the recipe be warned that it only makes about 6 (mine made 8) muffins.  Also the batter is incredibly thick.  I subbed some whole wheat flour, but otherwise left the recipe as is.  So good!

Then for dinner tonight I made a turkey shepherd's pie (loosely following that recipe - basically I didn't use as much stock and then sprinkled butter and cheese over the top).  I didn't know how it would go with the family, but it was a hit.  Even Milo ate it and requested I make it again one day.   Plus it used up almost all the leftover mashed potatoes (still have some to make potato pancakes) and all the turkey.

So the leftovers are almost all gone.  I may need to just eat a big salad for my next couple of meals.

Random Thoughts

Leo loves to put items in boxes.  Must harness this natural inclination now.  The Legos (not being all over the floor) will thank me later.  

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It's been almost a year since Sam the Cat died and Milo still wants him to come back. Explaining death again and again to a three-year-old is hard.

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Santa Claus is a weird concept. There is no getting around that.

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I'm not always perfect in the grammar and punctuation departments. Still people who make the same mistakes habitually and seem not to care about it bother me.

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Viruses are weird. One night you can be felled with a fever and the next night feeling relatively okay.

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I spend way more time as a parent talking about private parts than I ever thought was possible.

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Drawing pictures doesn't always make things all better, but it at least gives something for the hands to do while the head is trying to work things out. Also, just breathe.

Amy & Chris - 5 years

I can't really believe we have married for 5 years.  It's like we just on our honeymoon enjoying the relaxation after the wedding and talking about our plans for the next 5 years.  One thing was for sure we would still be in love and probably also returning to the beach to celebrate our anniversary.

In real life, we are still love and feeling very thankful we got to go get a beer together on a Saturday afternoon.  Such is life when two small kiddos are part of it.  It's no beach, but it is a lot of fun.  Like I said on Facebook I am glad Chris is my partner in this crazy life.  I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Ten years though...is totally going to be on celebrated on a beach.

The Video Monitor

In our rather small house a baby monitor is probably not necessary.  I can hear any noise coming from the crib - whether it be baby coos and full on screaming - wherever in the house I happen to be.  It's simply hard to get too far from the nursery in our house.  So a monitor for sound only would be totally beside the point.  We have a video monitor though and I love it.  I can watch to see what is going on in the crib rather than just hearing it.  Sometimes Leo is happily cruising around the crib or looking at a book and I would never know that if I didn't have the video monitor.  Other times I have known to rush in because he had an arm stuck between the rails.  A video monitor is a nicety, not a necessity, but when Leo smashed his the other day I started looking to how most cost effectively replace it.  Chris fixed ours, but I think I would have a bought one if needed.  For me it is worth it to watch my baby sleep and peek in on him whenever I want without disturbing him.

So Black Friday shoppers:  the video monitor is one purchase I would suggest making.

Thanksgiving in Actualality

Like tables across America right now, we are realizing we had way too much food at ours.  Due to moves, injuries and just other plans our Thanksgiving group shrank this year and yet we still planned like we were cooking for double the number of people.  Leftovers for a few days!

Leo loved Thanksgiving - he shoveled down cranberries, mashed potatoes and turkey.  Milo was not such a fun of the food - he found the butternut squash I tried to hide in the mac and cheese and refused to eat anymore of it.  He loved putting together a turkey Lego though.

The day was a sweet time together and focused on what I am most thankful for:  coffee with Chris, walks on sunny days through our neighborhood, playing at the park with my boys, delicious food and fun times with my parents and brother.  And above all love permeating it all.

Thanksgivin Prep

For the Thanksgiving celebration I am making the following yumminess:

• Cranberry sauce made of fresh cranberries, apricot jam and pineapple.  Spiced with cinnamon and ginger.  
• Macaroni and cheese with a ton of milk and butternut squash
• Pumpkin soup made of fresh pumpkin
• Apple pie

Boddler

The other day on Instagram, I coined the phrase boddler to describe Leo.  No longer a baby, but not quite a toddler either.  Since then I can't stop thinking of this in between phase he is in and we're all trying to figure out.  I don't remember Milo being stuck in between quite as much as Leo is.  Maybe it's because Leo is reaching for the next big thing he sees his brother modeling while Milo was content to just be a baby for quite some time.  Leo is constantly crawling toward danger and loudly voices his opinion on being stopped from climbing into the oven or dishwasher.  And yet, he also still needs and wants his mommy to be there for him with a hug.  He's a study in contrasts this little boddler of mine.

Tapas

In Sanskrit, the language of yoga, tapas means a fiery discipline.  When I hear this term, though, all I can think of is happy hour with lovely little plates of delicious food.  And that right there may be why my yoga teacher trainer didn't seem to like me much.

In spite of my natural inclinations running to drinking, napping and consuming copious calories, I've been trying to the instill a little more tapas into my life.  I've completed two weeks of 5k training and I am feeling great about it!  I am doing a couch to 5k program.  The gradual buildups of distance and speed have kept me motivated and feeling positive.  At least three times per week I have been hitting the pavement.  Today I wasn't feeling great due to too little sleep, but I still loaded the kids into the car and took the chance of a dropping them off at the gym daycare.  This is hit or miss, but today it was totally a hit.  They had fun playing and I got my run in.  Win win.

I'm not only working hard to cultivate this tapas spirit for me, but for my kiddos too.  When Milo sees me heading out the door to "practice for my race" as he calls my workouts, he is learning that everything we want to be good at takes practice.  Accomplishments don't come easily.  To achieve a goal we need to have a fiery discipline to take us across the finish line.  Only then can we enjoy happy hour.

Meal Planning

Planning our meals for the week is something that when I do it the week goes so much more smoothly.  When I don't things are stressful and we eat out way too much.  For some reason though I have to force myself to plan.  Coming up with a week's worth of meals at one time is tough work.  I actually did it for this coming week and while most of the meals are from the pantry, I did all the grocery shopping too.  That's a big accomplishment, folks.  

Monday:  bean and cheese enchiladas, raw carrots, guacamole

Tuesday:  chicken noodle soup

Wednesday:  frozen pizza, giant beans, polenta and roasted veggies

Thursday:  Thanksgiving at my parent's house

Friday:  leftovers

The Christmas Season Has Begun

Although I am typically a wait until after Thanksgiving is over before even thinking about Christmas type of girl, we have started a little early this year.  First it was just a few gifts I would buy for the boys when I saw them on sale.  Then it was the Winter Fun List.  And finally last night we attended the tree lighting of a local mall.  While we missed the actual tree lighting due to traffic and parking difficulties, we did catch the end of the parade.  I loved the parade with big balloons of reindeer and giant ginger bread men.  There were people on stilts dressed as Christmas trees and lots of festive music.  The fun atmosphere put me right in the holiday spirit (of consumerism at least).  Milo, however, did not like the loud speaker, the fire works or the general commotion.  He walked around with his hands over his ears until we made our way to a quieter portion of the outdoor mall.  Once there he enjoyed the lights plus it was close to the Lego store.

In spite of the crowds and the evening not going exactly as planned, we had a wonderful family night.  Everyone held it together and we enjoyed not only the holiday atmosphere  but also being with one another.  There must have been some type of Christmas miracle too because Leo actually slept though the night once we were home!

Winter Fun List

So To Speak

Growing up I had a speech impediment mainly with the r and l sounds.  I went to speech therapy weekly (or I was supposed to I actually remember trying to avoid it quite a bit) from about third grade through 6th grade.  Eventually all those years of practicing L sounds paid off and I graduated from therapy.  Still all these years later if I am really tired or a little tipsy, I can hear the impairment start to return.  I know to go to bed with my r and l sounds start getting sloppy.

Milo earlier this year smiling for the camera
(not how he would say that sentence).

Milo, who I can almost always understand but others usually can't, is now struggling with some sounds.  Today at preschool he had a speech and hearing screening and he did not pass the speech part of it.  Although I knew it was most likely coming I am back swimming in the now unfamiliar pool of speech therapy.

The therapist today was lovely and positive and thinks he will respond quickly to treatment.  If possible I would like to have the problem taken care of now rather than later, but there are so many avenues to look down.  Evidently therapy can sometimes be covered by insurance and sometimes not.  Sometimes children go through a school district and sometimes they need to go through a private clinic.

So I'm reading and researching and talking with friends about how to proceed.  I want to help Milo have the skills he needs to be confident in speaking his strong mind and wonderful ideas...even if he is sleepy.

Oh

This reminds me of the time I went to the doctor two years ago complaining of being tired.  The doctor did some blood work, but basically told me to get used to it.  That was a co-pay that seemed totally worth it.

What I've Been Reading

Since I've switched over to Goodreads, I have not updated here much about what I've been reading.  Basically it's been all over the place in terms of genres. I still read a lot of parenting books (not that they are helping).  My book club is in its third year and we've picked some interesting and really good books.  Most of my for enjoyment reads come from book club.  Then I read books that are just of interest to me or have sounded good.  Some books I read are books that I can quickly grab off of a shelf at the library as I am reminding my little people to use quiet voices and walking feet (got that from a parenting book).  

Right now though I have an eclectic collection of books I am working on. 

I just finished Mortality by Christopher Hitchens.  It's about dying.  It's a good book, but it is not uplifting.  This is not Tuesdays with Morrie. 

After that I needed something a little lighter, but the only other thing I have checked out is 

Making Time: Lillian Moller Gilbreth -- A Life Beyond "Cheaper by the Dozen".  This seems to be a really interesting biography, but I actually just wanted more Cheaper by the Dozen because goodness did I love that book when I was growing up.  

Since I am training for the 5k, I also picked up To Be a Runner: How Racing Up Mountains, Running with the Bulls, or Just Taking On a 5-K Makes You a Better Person (and the World a Better Place).

An Ordinary Monday

We had a rather ordinary Monday.  After a night at my parent's house for Sunday dinner, Milo usually sleeps in a bit.  Leo hasn't quite gotten that concept yet, but we're working on it.  We had breakfast and then I tried (unsuccessfully) to put Leo down for a nap.  Instead we headed to a mall to return some curtains and run around in the play space.  We picked up lunch and went home and ate it.  I tried again to put Leo down for a nap.  It was again rather unsuccessful and resulted in an afternoon of crying.  Milo occupied himself with Play Doh during the hysterics.  Then we put some clothes away and started dinner.  Things started to get dicey when Milo repeatedly tried to "help" Leo move from place to place.  By the time I found Milo tucking a ribbon into Leo's pants and trying to pull him up by the ribbon, I lost my patience    It was around 5 p.m. so I called Chris at work and told him it was time to come home.  We made it through dinner and I even threw some delicious cookies into the oven.  Baths and bed times and then a few moments alone at the end of the day.

So all in all a pretty ordinary day - times of fun and laughter with moments of stress and irritation; all wrapped up in the routines of a day.  These are the days we just get through, but don't remember them to be good or bad.  A day like today just is.

But for others the day took a different turn.  We were going to meet a friend for a play date, but she texted that her son had fallen again and couldn't move his left side.  She called the ambulance.  For her the day was not ordinary.  It was filled with doctors, hospitals and tests for her sweet little boy.  It hasn't been filled with answers, but it continues to be filled with thoughts of love and healing.

Pinning It

By now it seems like almost everyone is on Pinterest.  If you aren't familiar with the site, it is a place to collect "pins" of good ideas or things from the web you would like to return to.  You can either pin items as you come across them or re-pin items you see your friends have pinned.

I've done plenty of kid's crafts that I've found on Pinterest.  I've also done a few recipes.  Some have had mixed results. My favorite Pinterest related activity?  On Halloween I made friendly ghosts to peek out of the windows and used a drill to make a polka dot pumpkin.  Both super cute and super easy ideas I never would have thought of on my own.

I'm amygk on Pinterest if you want to connect!

Shutterfly Party

As part of a House Party program we hosted a little Shutterfly party here today.  The party was actually just a play date, but it was nice to have friends over on Saturday and play all together.  In addition to the fun times with friends we were able to give codes for free photo books and holiday cards.

I love the Shutterfly photo books.  The blog posts here of the monthly shots get turned into a book (we have one for Milo's first two years and will make Leo's too).  I also do a book for each season more or less.  I don't scrapbook and I hate having tons of prints laying around, so the photo books work for us.  It's not much energy to do and I really enjoy the results.  I try to make the books have a bit of a story and then they can be read as any other picture book.  We take so many pictures and find the best way for us to organize these special frozen moments in time is through the photo book.

* This post is part of the agreement I have with House Party.  In return for hosting an event, I was given a free photo book.  

Brothers

As Leo is growing up our house is becoming a sometimes battle zone.  One where the little brother charges full steam ahead into a train track or block creation built by the older brother.  Screams of "no Weo" are heard, some pushing happens and then there are tears.

I'm not sure what the solution to this is.  Leo can't be held responsible for his actions yet, but he is totally instigating.  Milo can't push or hit people even if he's not liking what they are doing, but I can see how this can be frustrating.  We've tried having them play in separate rooms, but that's just not as much fun.  I've suggested certain toys only come our during nap time, but that isn't always agreeable.

It's all a work in progress. To help my along the way I read Siblings Without Rivalry.  The tips from this book might be helpful down the road, but not quite yet.  One thing the book did mention is letting the children voice their negative emotions toward the other children.  This was hard to hear!  I mentioned to Milo one day that is must be frustrating to have a little brother.  He agreed and said he didn't want him anymore.  As much as I wanted to talk him out of this, I stayed silent for a few moments.  Milo then said well I guess I like him sometimes too so maybe we will keep him.  Yes, maybe we will keep them both.

Fantasy

I have this fantasy.  It starts in a dark and quiet hotel room.  It pretty much ends there too.  Oh sure, I would throw in a beach, some champagne and lots of time to do just what I want to do, but pretty much the fantasy is being in a quiet room by myself.  With no one else there who needs anything from me.  I would read, I would sleep, I would exercise, I would yoga, I would sleep some more, I would eat delicious and healthy food prepared by someone else, I would sip cool bubbly champagne, I would drink strong coffee while it was still hot.  After that I would start the routine all over again.  All of this in quiet.  It would be amazing.

It sounds like a vacation this fantasy of mine, but because it is fantasy there are none of the drawbacks to actual travel.  No scheduling the time away, no busy airports, just the sweet expectation of quiet, solitude and relaxation.

I would, of course, come back from this fantasy.  After a day or two of quiet I am sure I would be ready to return to my sweet and loud boys.  And as long as this is all fantasy, I would also return to a totally decluttered and clean house.

Recipe - Gluten free quick enchilada bake

We are by no means gluten free at our house, but I do like to lay off the wheat for at least one meal per day.  Today that meal was dinner and it was delicious   I've been tweaking my enchilada recipe and I think I found a keeper.

Quick Enchilada Bake

1 cup cooked chopped chicken
1 can pinto beans, drained and rinsed
1/2 cup salsa
9 small corn tortillas
1/2 cup sour cream
1/4 cup taco sauce
shredded cheese (I used a pre-shredded Mexican blend)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.  Combine chicken, beans and salsa in a bowl.  In another shallow bowl mix together sour cream and taco sauce.  Brush or soak sour cream mixture over the tortillas one at a time.  Begin to layer the soaked tortillas, chicken mixture and cheese in baking dish ending with a layer of tortillas and cheese (I had about three layers).  Bake for 30 minutes or until everything is warmed through and the cheese is bubbly.  Serve with chopped avocado, sliced olives and jalapenos.

*I used grocery store rotisserie chicken in this leftover from the night before.  So two easy meals in one week!  

Big Election Night

Four years ago I sat on the same couch watching the election results come in.  Last time around though I was sitting here pregnant with a little Milo who was happily kicking in my belly.  He loved the sound of Obama's voice or perhaps he enjoyed the happy feelings I shared with him whenever I heard the future President speak.

Today I voted wearing Leo in his Boba carrier.  He really wanted to touch the buttons too and I was excited to share the experience with him.  I again voted for Obama and I was proud to do it.  I just read what I wrote four years ago about voting for President and I still agree with it.  Hate, fear and disrespect have no place in the America I believe in and those are the things I see being courted by the other candidate.

Milo - who wanted to vote for poopy and candy because he likes their ideas - went to vote with Chris.  Exposing the children to the democratic process is important.  Regardless of who wins the election, I will teach my boys to respect other ideas, their country and the people around them.  I wish other people would do the same and maybe within a generation the party divide wouldn't be so wide.  There are so many teachable moments to share and learn from together.

To the Limit

From about the age of 22 to the age of 32, I could probably count on one hand the number of times
I went to a library.  Then after I had Milo heading to the library became a weekly event. At first we went for story times and met other babies and parents.  Milo soon tired of the organized events and for about a year we only go to the library to check out books and DVDs and play with the toys.  We still go at least once a week though.

Today at the library as we were checking out our stack of books the computer let me know we had reached our limit.  This means somewhere around my house I have 50 picture books.  Once we reached the limit we weren't able to check out any other materials.  Milo, amid a few tears, had to pick some books to return so he could check out the last few Thomas the Train easy readers he really wanted.

I started thinking this afternoon it would be great if other parts of my life offered a card with a limit. I started imagining all the places I would use the limit card - Milo not listening one too many times, me eating too much candy, Leo not sleeping.  The card would just magically fix the situation.  Then as I was writing this I realized there is no magic involved and it is up to me set and enforce all the limits.  Drats.  Guess I better check out more books on preschool behavior, healthy food and baby sleep patterns.

Time Change

Just ahead of the time change we completed our Autumn fun list.  It was a full season of excitement.  Making these lists has kept us busy and interested in the different opportunities each season offers.  Plus, checking the items off the list is enjoyable all by itself.

We are already thinking of items for our Winter list.  If you have any suggestions, let me know!

Leo - 10 Months

Oh Leo.  You of the recent nap strikes and the waking up to nurse sometimes only an hour after being put to bed.  At 10 months old you are have surprised us by seemingly suddenly being your own little person rather than the content baby who could be carted around.  You're crawling all over and nothing much slows you down.  You set your sights on something - the stuffed snake, stack of DVDs or laptop cord - and you are off to get it at a quick pace.  Once at your destination your giggles and happy grunts give away whatever mischief you are getting into.  And mischief does seem to find you.  You've knocked over plants, emptied Kleenex boxes and opened low drawers to the empty the contents.  All of this and you've only been crawling for a month.  It also seems like you are ready for the next thing.  You do a version of down dog while crawling that makes it clear what you really want to be doing is standing.  If you are next to a person or a piece of furniture you just go ahead and pull to stand.  I'm afraid walking isn't going to be far behind.

It's been a busy past month with not as much sleep as you probably need.  Plus you've been fighting off back to back colds and I suspect you have a few more teeth coming in.  All this to say you've been a little fussy lately.  Even the fussy version of you though is somewhat delightful.  You have grins and giggles I can't get enough of.  You love to have simple songs sung for you and you like to be entertained by the people around you.  While you don't have quite as much time for cuddling lately, you still love to be held and give hugs.

In the past few days you have debuted a full arm wave to say bye bye or hello.  Today at the grocery store you were showing this off quite nicely to all the other people shopping.  Your smiles and paitence in line earned you a bright yellow balloon from the cashier.  I'm not sure when I have seen you so excited as you were holding onto that string as we walked to car.  Your chubby little hand was closed tightly around the string and you would excitedly pull the balloon up and down to watch it move.  I hope the excitement for the little things never leaves you, buddy.  At the end of the day it is what counts.  And you are reminding me of that often as we go through your early days together.

Halloween

Halloween has always been my favorite holiday.  Kids in costumes, candy and the fun decorations make it my kind of fun.  This year Milo also was looking forward to the season - we had a good time decorating with pumpkin and ghostie lights.  We also made our house look haunted by putting friendly ghosts in the windows.  Milo also helped carve our pumpkins and did a great job at making cuts with a safe knife.

Prior to Halloween there were three days of parties - one at Milo's school, one with our playgroup and one at a neighbors to attend.  Our little zookeeper and monkey were a hit at each one.

Trick or treating was a bit of a bust due to cold and rain.  That worked out fine though because we all had a wonderful time inside our house eating chili, chatting, playing and watching The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown.

Ready, Set. Goal

I've been neglecting this blog. Partly because I am busy with my two little men and partly because it's easier to just talk to the few people who actually read it.  Either way I haven't been writing and I miss it.  I miss the writing, the reflecting and just the putting the thoughts into words.

So I'll be posting each day in November.  We'll see what I come up.

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In other goal setting news, I announced today on Facebook that I'll be running a 5k to celebrate my birthday.  In exactly two months.  Let the training begin!